2 evils

If you must choose between two evils,
pick the oneyou've never tried before.

all heart

add the ticks minus the crosses
weigh the pros against the cons
SWOT it! this won't help
for it's a case of all heart
and no head.
~r

what????

Live like there is no tomorrow - is that supposed to be depressing or what?!!

for a change

always, much time spent
thinking, analysing, rationalising,
- for a change
i like to have the adventures
without insurance
without standby band aids
without a safety-net
no underwriting,
no guarantees,
no indemnities.
- just courage
- just reckless abandonment.
~r

sing with me... beautiful day

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out
It was a beautiful day!
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day.
~U2

who are you

Who are you?
A non-believer
with the right moves
beautiful reptilian creature
your veins can never hold
the heat I so willingly yield to you
your soul cannot fathom
the depth of that which was offered
and so shyly given
~r

the catch

I do not want to be free:
Captivate me.

~r

the touch

the touch of the wings of love
comes freely,
lightly,
unexpectedly
not the ordinary,
not the common,
not the garden variety
amidst the breathing and movement of day-to-day
clouded by the frenzy of the trivia
one light momentary touch,
and the wings take flight again,
even before the blessed
registers the grace bestowed
its fleeting touch
leaves its mark for a lifetime
and beyond.
~r

half empty

how do you,
a soul with a glass
forever half empty
you with an iced cubed heart
spill over my space
with words, gestures
to fill my thristing soul?~r

my love letter

my love letter
comes not from templates
made easy
and free at a click
my love letter
comes from dreams
hard to hold
with memories of yesterday
with wishes for tomorrow
and
feelings of a million fleeting moments
merging together
to make a lifetime.

~r

i'm not that into you

"
We're friends, that's all",
you gave me that line
and simply i nodded my head.
"But of course!" - I bit my lips.
For that's when the game began:
"I'm not that into you"
reciting that in my head.
"There's probably another you
on another plane
who won't play games
and catch an old friend
in her folly and dreams".

Being friends would suffice.
i would curb my dream
for more
i underestimated me..
and
i underestimated you.

really, i'm more than one of boys:
you're comfortable with me
perfectly candid
and honest about
your most random
deepest and most profound thoughts.
you can be yourself.
this bit of intimacy we share
will not be misunderstood
you need not worry...
i am not that into you.
~r

to the self be true

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
-Dr. Seuss

to be

to wander
.......to dance
............to fly
................to be
so bright
so bold
so free
to see....
to find........
to do..........
to live
a life so full
so wild
so free

~r

playground of yesterday

so
here i am
once more
in the playground of words
selfpenned
a different experience
a new entry in a diary
overdosed
on ramblings and sentiments
abandoning the old toys
in my playground of yesterday

~r

another translation - Pushkin 1829

I loved you;
and perhaps I love you still,
The flame, perhaps, is not extinguished;yet
It burns so quietly within my soul,
No longer should you feel distressed by it.
Silently and hopelessly I loved you,
At times too jealous and at times too shy.
God grant you find another who will love you
As tenderly and truthfully as I.

Really?

The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration.-Pearl S. Buck

laughter

What is the survival value of the involuntary simultaneous contraction of fifteen facial muscles associated with certain noises which are often irrepressible? Laughter is a reflex, but unique in that it serves no apparent biological purpose; one might call it a luxury reflex. — Arthur Koestle

christian & me

mystery

We may one day unlock all the physical secrets of life.
We may eventually decipher the miracles of the universe,
raise the principles of science and the musings of philosophy to unknown horizons.
We may banish ignorance on a galactic scale,
but no matter how far we travel,
or what wonders we create,
we will never fully comprehend that which defines our humanity.

We will never penetrate the sublime mystery of the heart,
and nor should we.
Unlike baby milk or the speed of light,
Love will never be reduced to formula.
It will be fated as the eternal irony.

forgotten

forgotten
how everything reflected
in the ocean
is twice as brilliant
the smell and taste of salt water
the lapping and caress of waves
the hair all tangled in sea water,
breathing one with the breeze,
swimming, sliding
-the blue, the silver, the rainbow colours ...

~r

a glimpse

once in a while
i glimpse another part of me
in a stranger's eyes
and so the game begins
the smile,
inviting challenging,
the touch, sparkling
the sensous tingling
the pulse,
becoming the sound of drums
the hunger, once satisfied,
returns again a million times stronger
and
the flame - burns
too bright too soon
sizzles and dies.

crowded rooms

in crowded rooms
i search for you
but when i catchyour dear familar eyes
i turn away
for fear the world may see
the love
i never could disguise

pushkin "I loved you so" 1829

i have loved you so,
and may just love you still;
and for awhile
the feeling may remain..
but let this give you not one moment's spilled
i'd never want to cause you any pain.
i have loved you hopelessly,
and yet so dearly,
the shyness,
the anxiety
- tho' in vain
- made up a love so tender,
so true,
i pray
God grant you
may be so well loved again.

don't understand

dont understand the need for drug and drink
to make the dawn
seem even more enchanting -
or
a sunset
outlive its moment of perfection
when the beauty God has created
is always enough
~r

maturity

"Maturity is the ability to do a job whether or not you are supervised, to carry money without spending it, and to bear an injustice without wanting to get even".-Ann Landers

2 out of 3 - not too bad! ;-)

mattter of the heart

It is a matter of the heart after all
But we have spoken of it
so many times before
It has costs so much already
- must it cost more?
How much more must it take away
And who shall bear such cost
Seemingly only an act
- difficult to remember
difficult not to do
But perhaps only seemingly difficult
An act grown large for the price which has had to be paid
So what ought I do now
Do I make silence my companion
For when a tree falls in the forests
and there are no ears to hear
there is no noise any way
Perhaps it is of little consequence
after all - it is only a matter of the heart.

~r

lost and found

my spirit searching
in its lonely state
the numbing pain
my constant mate
nothing to show
but some thing to gain
an emptied soul
in a thirsty world
the light kindled
burning slow
new life evolving
feel changed
but still the same
not who i was
but who i am

~r

trinklets

trinkets
just pieces of metal
may have been worth
far more before
when soldered
with matters of the heart
yet, when the heart is cold
and empty
when it matters no more
and that which was before
is no longer
what remain are only
pieces of trinkets
just pieces of metal.


~r

is that love?

"The passion that kindled the spirit, the emotions that goes uncontrolled, sexuality exploration. Is it love? Touching and nurturing? Yes, it is a sign of love. Any irresponsible acts are not by love but urge to feel and experience, consummation until there's no fire left. And they always bounce back, the hurt. Love is warm not fiery. Love is not overly but wisely given. Love is not an individual thing. Love is not sex but union. Love is not marriage but blessing. Love is learning to like what you don't like, a compromise. Every children born needs love. Every man and woman needs love. This world will be better, if we learn how to love". (written by Nikki on "The Art of Sutra" found at http://modri.blogspot.com/

Is that Love, what is Love? At 37, I am still asking that question, yet i know, Love cannot be reduced to a formula like powdered milk or theorems we oft forget after awhile..May be, like LIFE, what is needed for LOVE is not the intellectual exercise of synthesizing of it but the Living and the Loving - It's all EXPERIENCIAL.